It has been three weeks, and I can finally write about it. After seventeen weeks of being pregnant, I miscarried our little boy. Jeff and I were devastated. I lost a ton of blood, had a D&C, and had to stay overnight in the hospital until my blood pressure was high enough to send me home.
Jake and Maia were sad, but it didn't seem to affect them too much. Jenny didn't really process it. But Lizzy has kept talking about it. Three weeks ago, she said, "Our baby died. But we already have a baby [meaning Hailey, 8 months old]."
I thought that was all she would say. But then last week she said, "Mom, I miss Jesus. I want to see him. Maybe when we see him, he'll give us our baby back." I thought that was cute and told her that she was right--our baby was with Jesus.
Two days ago, she said, "Mom, what's our baby's name that died? I want to name it 'Asher.'" Jeff and I thought that was a good name, so we're going with it.
It's amazing how attached I became to a baby I never knew. But, we love baby Asher and are looking forward to meeting him one day.
23 comments:
Amy, I am so sorry. I don't know if you know this but my second is Asher. It means Happy, lucky and blessed. It is a really meaningful name. I am just so sorry for your loss
I am sorry for your loss. I hope you are recovering well. My prayers will be with you and your family.
Amy, Jeff, I'm so sorry you lost you precious baby Asher. Sending prayers & hugs. XXX
Oh, Amy, I am so sorry for your loss!!! That's heartbreaking. Prayers and love to you and your family, and to baby Asher.
Praise our Lord that all babies have an eternal home with our Savior and you will see and meet Asher someday and the way this crazy world is turning we may say sooner than later - for we sorrow not as others who have no hope !!! Thank goodness that even in our loss, we can still find praise to our Lord even though sometimes we struggle understanding why.... I know it was a hard 3 weeks for you and the family to go through and I am so sorry to hear that your little guy didn't get the chance to let you love his dear little precious self here on our earth and that hospital complications had to be undertaken also. My prayers are with you all and know that we love you so much and if you need any help or encouragement, please feel free to seek us all out! Then again, always remember being an Osmond you have a great support system!! Love you whole bunches - here is a big, big hug!!
Hi Amy,
It's amazing how kids process things.
Every now and then my 16 yr old will mention how he would have liked to have met his older brother.You don't think they think about it but they do.I guess its just Lizzy's way of mourning. It's an ongoing process and it never gets easy but it does get easier if that makes sense.Tell Lizzy that She will see Asher again and he is with Jesus and watching over her. I will keep you all in my prayers.God Bless
Amy
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family. Hopefully Lizzy's way of coping will help you all.
Caroline (UK)
I'm so sorry Amy & Jeff. Words just don't seem enough at times like these. You have my love and prayers.
Sweet Amy, I am so, so sorry for your huge loss. There is such sadness that comes with a miscarriage, even more so when the baby had come that far in his development. Please be gentle with yourself as you heal, both physically and emotionally. Let the small stuff go, and don't try to do everything and be everything for a little while. I'll be praying for you!! I'm so very sorry.
I'm so sorry, Amy. Miscarriages are stupid. Yeah, I said it.
Amy, Jeff and family, I cried when I read your sad news about baby Asher. Yes, you will see him again... Hugs from France to you all... Florence
Thank you so much, everyone, for your sweet messages. It means so much to me that people care! I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving! I am counting my blessings this year.
Wendy, I didn't know that your second is named "Asher." I love the name--how meaningful! How are you guys? I haven't seen you in forever! Wishing you all the best this holiday season! Much love, Amy
Dearest Amy. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself and your little family. I am a great believer in the Lord having a plan for us all and that includes little Asher. Safe in Gods care Hugs to you all xxx
I'm sorry for your loss, Amy. Asher is a beautiful name.
Kids are the best in times like this - they can make you smile when your heart aches. Hugs with you and the family Amy and thanks for sharing your story.
I am so sorry for your loss. What a sweetheart Lizzy is...God's comfort on earth.
Amy, I am soooooo sorry to hear you lost your little Asher. I know he was a much wanted and loved baby. Perhaps you and Jeff an try again?
Oh Amy, I am so sorry for your loss. I have been where you are and know how sad it can be to lose a baby you never knew. You and your family are in my prayers.
Heidi
No words can ease your pain, or fill that empty place in your heart. But, you will see Asher again one day, and will be together for eternity. You're in my prayers and my heart.
Amy: I had a beautiful talk with your mom in Warrensburg & told her about the losses of my 3 full-term sons. Your book "Hope After Divorce" helps me so much with the end of my 30-year marriage. I'm happy again and thank you for being part of that. If I can support you through your miscarriage, please let me know. Pat
Amy, I am truly sorry for you and your family on the loss of your baby son. My prayers are with you all!
I am sorry for your loss. I hope being with your family over Christmas and your immediate family brings you joy, and the resolve to try again. I miscarried twice and feel your pain.
May the coming year be your best to date.
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